SANIDRAS

Nagsimula ang lahat sa eskwela, nagsama sama labing dalawa....hanggang ngayon pag naaalala ko ang highschool life ko, I always want to hum this song...

Minsan binibilang natin ang taon ng pag tanda natin, pero nakakalimutan natin bilangin ang taon na kasama natin ang mga tao sa buhay natin. Masasabi ko na mapalad ako, kasi di ko hiningi pero napabilang ako sa kanila. Naalala ko yun, first day of school sa APHS, 1990 , I GOOD daw ako, simper masaya kasi kasama ko ung ibang classmate ko sa elementary. Di ko pa sila ka close nun, pero nagkikita na kami at nagkakausap. Sumiklab and natatago naming bonding 2nd year high school, kung tutuusin masaya ako na bumaba ang section ko kasi kung hindi di ko sila makikilala. hehehe =) Puppy love, crushes, eraser heads, away sa corridor, tambay sa wawa, after school chikahan. I was accepted and felt loved in this group.

Fast forward, 20 years na kami this coming 2014, reunion raw ulit ng highschool namin, pero meron rin kami na reunion namin.. Magkikita kita kami ulit lahat this Novermber 2014. After 20 years, may mga supling na kami.. Dami pa rin napapag kwnetuhan at gumagawa talaga ng paraan. Siguro tama ang kasabihan na pag gusto may paraan pag ayaw maraming dahilan. Kasi kahit gaano kalayo pa ang narating namin geographically, we still find ways to talk, to inspire each other, to laugh, to teach each other, to ask questions, to confess without being judged and to be loved.

I found a family in them and I love them.. My Kadas Forever....

 



Heart's Day

Staring at my laptop, and learning my way to Windows 8, I decided to take a break before I explode. I visited you again.. my blog site.

How are you doing? Its been a year since I lay eyes upon you, let's just say I still do not have the drive to write. I needed inspiration, however, inspiration is like a butterfly, the more I long for it, it eludes me..

My body misses the adrenaline rush, maybe it's too old.. as they say I am an old soul.. hehehe =) But good news, my heart starting to pump again, not blood but slowly starting to feel again. The very last heart ache almost put it in comatose. It's like a soldier left on the battle field half dead, if there was 3/4 dead then it would be like it. Sometimes, I think I lived like a zombie for almost 5 years..not feeling anything...Sometimes, I asked myself, do I not feel anything anymore, or my heart is just to scared to be left dead again?? Since I cannot find within me the answer to that question .. Let me just have this prayer:

Lord, I am scared. I once, had the courage that I can do anything, that I forgot YOU.
Because of that, it left me totally broken, I trusted on my own strength and relied
on my own understanding, because I was too happy.
I forgot my purpose in life.

Lord, forgive me and I know it's too much but please fill out the HOLE in my heart
Give me back the heart I once had, because I want to be a good example to my child.
Let me be a living testimony about Your Love and how it will transform me
That let me always remember that YOU always loved me and YOU always looked upon me
Make me whole oh, GOD.

Amen..