Staying Alive

When I first met her, it was like the song " Staying Alive" was playing on the background, because of her "terno' black bell bottoms and long sleeves. She was always frowning during those times so nobody dared to talk to her. I got a chance to meet her when Bob saw her smoking at the JTC building stairway. From that moment, we became friends. We started going out, then moving to the same house, then being roommates.. We've been together and inseparable since then, that was about 6 years ago..late of 2006.

We left Philippines because of heart aches and met men that would change our lives forever. We also, at the same time, travelled the road of being left behind and heartache again. If I may say, we have both endured 2 heartbreaks, but I think she had more...hehehe =)

I think GOD was purposely giving me friends who are really tough on the outside, because GOD knows I was a fragile person last time, however, after i gave birth to Ellyce, I think I become so tough.

Thank you Lord, for Guerlain Ross Dolas Ayento, life in Singapore will never be the same and even though we are not gonna be housemate anymore, please take care of her and may we still continue to be together as friends forever. Stay Alive my friend, with your dreams !!!!

For you Laine, this song I dedicate:

Staying Alive
Bee Gees

Well, you can tell by the way I use my walk,
I'm a woman's man, no time to talk.
Music loud and women warm.
I've been kicked around since I was born.
And now it's all right, it's O.K.
And you may look the other way.
We can try to understand
The New York Times' effect on man.
Whether you're a brother
Or whether you're a mother,
You're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin'
And ev'rybody shakin'
And we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Well now, I get low and I get high
And if I can't get either I really try.
Got the wings of heaven on my shoes
I'm a dancin' man and I just can't lose.
You know it's all right, it's O.K.
I'll live to see another day.
We can try to understand
The New York Times' effect on man.
Whether you're a brother
Or whether you're a mother,
You're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin'
And ev'rybody shakin'
And we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Stayin' alive
Well, you can tell by the way I use my walk,
I'm a woman's man, no time to talk.
Music loud and women warm.
I've been kicked around since I was born.
And now it's all right, it's O.K.
And you may look the other way.
We can try to understand
The New York Times' effect on man.
Whether you're a brother
Or whether you're a mother,
You're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Feel the city breakin'
And ev'rybody shakin'
And we're stayin' alive, stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Stayin' alive.
Ah, ha, ha, ha,
Stayin' alive.
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Stayin' alive
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Life goin' nowhere.
Somebody help me, yeah.
Stayin' alive 

Muling Nangagrap

Isang taon na lang mag eexpire na ang re entry permit namin mag-ina. November 26, 2013 to be exact. Kinakabahan ako, napakabilis ng panahon. 2006 tapos feeling ko bigla na lang 2013 na.. Anim na taon at kalahati. Nagtagal na ako sa bansang ito. Kung tutuusin ito na ang tirahan ko. Parang wala na ako babalikan sa kinagisnan ko. Dito na kami namuhay mag-ina.

Marami ako mga plano. Plan A, Plan B at Plan C. Pero sa tapusan ng mga plano isa lang naman ang tinatakbuhan ko. Ikaw lang, Panginoon..Dinala mo ako dito sa Singapore, nung una parang mga pawang mga plano lang rin at mga pangarap na nagkatotoo..

Mangangarap ulit ako, Panginoon..at gusto ko malaman mo, na kahit ano mangyari..kung Plan A o Plan B o Plan C man ang piliin Mo, patuloy ako magtitiwala..mangangarap..di na mag isa kungdi kasama na si Ellyce..yung munti mong regalo sa akin..

Maraming salamat sa Buhay. Sa pag-asa, sa mga kaibigan, sa paghihirap, sa mga pagsubok..Sa pagmamahal at pagtitiwala na kakayanin ko ang lahat...Paslit pa rin pala ako sa mga mata Mo, kasi umiiyak pa rin ako pag nasusugatan, nasasaktan..Ikaw pa rin ang tinatakbuhan ko..

Looking forward to be amazed this coming 2013...=) Praise be to You!!!

Bato

Nasubukan mo na bang maging bato? Pagod na ang leeg ko kakatingala, gusto ko na tumungo Pero hindi ko magawa, dahil mga luha ko ay tutulo. Pagod na ako maging malakas, wala na ako mapaghugutan. Para bang lalo ako lumalaban, Lalo dumadami ang mga pangyayaring tumutulak sa kin para sumuko. Minsan na ako tumungo, lumuhod at nanalangin, Gusto kong isipin na naririnig ako ng Diyos. Pero bakit ang hirap hirap pa rin. Sobra sobra ba ginawa ko na kasalanan, ultimo Sya di na ako mapatawad??? Sa aking pagtungo, maraming luha ang pumatak, Di pala ako "bato". Tao pa rin na nasasaktan...

Mother's Day 2012

It's will be the 4th time I am privileged to be greeted "happy mother's day" on this special occasion and each year has been a different feeling for me...

Mother's day was celebrated last May 13, 2012 and I, like millions of mother around the world receive messages and greetings in emails, chats, FB, you name it...It's a special feeling and it is an honor...I was presented by an art craft made of a heart and a song from my ever dearest sweet daughter...She has her ways making this day special for me.. She even greeted me in advance. =)

This year, I felt 3 things regarding my current status as a single mother. Let me elaborate these to you:

1. I felt a little envy. I found my colleagues at work talking about how they will celebrate it with their husbands and how their husbands would surprise them and deep in my heart there is a little pain, not because I do not have David beside me but "there is nobody beside me". I am alone and I let myself be alone for 4 years..I was thinking at the back of my mind how it would be nice to celebrate it with somebody other than my child.

2. I think of myself pretty again, I felt happy... as in satisfaction happy..let's just say I can still make heads turn even at 35.. =P

3. I felt very offended, I just don't understand why some people just any how tell others your situation as if it's not in a personal level and they do this just to feed their egos. One of my caring guy colleagues asked me innocently " earlene, why do they greet you mother's day when you are single, are you not offended?", I answered him nicely and told him that I have a child therefore I am a mother. But my girl colleague just butt in and said can't you get it "she is a single mom"...haaizzz...and it did not stop her from telling each person who would ask who am I? she will always add this 5 little words " she is a single mom" as if I have a scarlet letter on my forehead..I don't deny it, but I do not want every single living creature in this planet know. I do not want people to pity me and my child, and I do not want them to belittle  us just because a selfish guy just cannot be responsible...

Single mom, or a married mom, what ever it is, the mother day was celebrated to honor the women who were given a chance to have a child/children and took that chance and decided to bring a life to this world.  I salute all those women out there, it's not easy and motherhood is a choice and a journey that is for ever.....

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, LADIES....

WAPAK

The other day, I realized how I can affect another person, in a special way...

We were viewing houses to rent for this coming year because our rental contract will end on January 31st, 2012. Knowing expenses are getting high , I never expected to find a house rent lower than what we have now. Also, I have some restrictions to the next house that we are going to rent, because my child will start studying this year.

First restriction is, I need to get my own room, because she is getting bigger now. I cannot share rooms with Laine, mainly I am considered a single unit of community with the father missing in action, so i have a mom as a proxy to take care of my child when I am working. second restriction is it should be within the neighbourhood because the school she is registered to only will recognize her staying there as s student if all their requirements are matched, which included the location we are staying. When you are on a limited budget and a lot of restrictions, your window of options is quite small, like a pin hole as I would say.

The only solution that I can think of at the moment is to tell my friend, who is also our agent to be true to all my request. To be honest I am not sure if for him these are demands...hehehe =)
But the saying "finding a needle in a haystack" will not coined if it has not happened before...and by God's grace.. we found a house... not only that I need but my flatmates loves....

But what really caught white handly was the reaction of my friend agent, he told me he was willing to shell out the necessary money to help us out to transfer to the house we wanted. I asked him for the reason, he said because I am a good person, I was kind to him during the time he needed a friend. That I was a a good hearted person...and he will forever cherish. I was so touched by his words, i never knew that by being myself I had a great impact on another person's life...

What I lack, GOD finds people to help me out to have it...THANK YOU LORD...

THANK YOU FOR A GOOD 2012 start..............