As Years Go By

Early morning, my friend and I had to catch a taxi to reach early in the office. While chatting inside the cab, I told her, I am noticing that my fingers are showing ageing...The lines are showing and I suddenly feel that I am now getting older. Then she smiled at me and told me, you are beautiful and still young at heart...

My birthday's coming this September and I am turning 30 and to tell you the truth,I really do not feel like I am going that age. I enjoy my life and try to seize the day and see the positive things it has instore for me...But of course, there are times, I feel down and lonely and ugly. But I never let it stop me from enjoying life...

I try to be thankful for the little things. Like good food on the table, a day's hard work, to be beside him, to see my friends happy, talking to my family and knowing we still survive the day...The good health of my love ones.

Today is the first day of the month of AUGUST and I EXPRESS MY THANKFULNESS to GOD

You are the peace that guards my heart
My help in times of need
You are the hope that leads me on and brings me to my knees
For there I find you waiting and there I find release
So with all my heart I worship and unto You I sing

For You alone, deserves all glory
For You alone, deserves all praise
Father, we worship and adore you
Father, we long to seek Your face
Father, we love you and we offer you THIS DAY...

Thank you, Lord =)

ARTISTAHIN

Kung iyong iisipin para rin pala tayong mga Artistahin. Let me count the ways:

1. Pag pasok mo, kahit may problema ka, haharapin mo lahat ng kasama mo with a big smile, kahit naiiyak ka na sa sakit nang nararamdaman mo(kung hindi mahalata ka nila na may problema ka)

2. Kailangan mo i-hurno ang iyong kakayahan. Aba, dapat daw flexible ka.parang artista di lang pang drama dapat kaya rin magpatawa...

3. Lahat ng tao gusto mag diet, magpa puti, magpaunat ng buhok, maging in sa uso..Kailangan lagi updated sa fashion

4. Napipisil ka rin ng ibang department, company or ibang network..lalo na kung magaling ka at after nun pwede ka na mag demand ng talent fee este sweldo pala

5. Bawal pakita ang tunay mo na nararamdaman kungdi unprofessional ka.

6. Pag nalalate parati at di ang peperform ng maayos, masusupend ka..ahahha =P

7. Kailangan humakot ng awards, pang dagdag yun sa iyong qualifications as a good actor/actress. Ano ba yan? empleyado pala...

8. May mga loveteam rin na nabubuo sa office..yyihiii (san na ka love team ko?)

9. Meron ka rin tinatawag na manager..(yesss)

10. Aba, pinag tsisismisan ka rin minsan at nakakarinig ng mga blind item di ba? (Artista nga) - pag huli ka sa balita, it's either wala ka pakialam sa mundo or ikaw ang pinag uusapan nila...ahahaha =P

Napatunayan ko na ang pagaartista ay isa rin palang propesyon na dapat pangalagaan at lahat pala tayo ay nasa mundo rin ng SHOWBIZNESS...

Earlene reporting...thank you for my sponsors..GAP for my perfume...Petit Monde and G2000 for my clothes and Mine's Salon for my Hair... =P

Hurting Inside

Last Saturday, I watched Harry Potter with friends. During the coarse of the film, I suddenly feel remorse. I thought I was also feeling what Harry was feeling... The feeling of loneliness. The feeling of missing someone, that they are just near you, but seems, you are not able or due to some circumstances, you need to not let it show. Haiizzz..

Sometimes, when you look at a situation, each person has a way of interpreting what is happening. Because we are ruled by our emotions, and governed by our thoughts. Sometimes, what is the strongest will prevail and you will see the reaction based on what they are feeling at the moment.
I really liked the movie. It had reached my expectation. I felt Harry's pain, he is really a good actor. He has furnished what he had and also, made it on his own...

As a conclusion, I am also hurting inside. Hurting because, there is something I really want to do, but due to some circumstances, it hinders me from acting on it. This should be accomplished, for me not to get hurt in the long run. So hurt myself in the process....Ahaha =) Where did that thinking came from???

I am praying for it..Because I know I have found it and it has found me...I know that it is the answer to my prayers. I just have to believe and hope..but expect the worse as well....

Earlene Gonzales
Monday
29/07/2007
12:38

Free Hour

My collegue sent us a message during the morning for us to read and enjoy:

"The moment you are in TENSION>You will lose your ATTENTION>Then you are in total CONFUSION>and you'll feel IRRITATION>This may spoil your personal RELATIONS>Untimately, you won't get COOPERATION>And get things into COMPLICATION>Then you may raise CAUTION>And you have to take MEDICATION>Why not try understanding the SITUATION>And try to think about the SOLUTION>Many problems will be solved by DISCUSSION>Which will work out better in your PROFESSION>Don't think this is a free SUGGESTION>It is only for your PREVENTION>If you understand my INTENTION>You'll never come again into TENSION!"

and this is my reply:

But right now we are in DEPRESSION of user's INTERROGATION....so do not put us in CONFUSION just treat us for a LUNCHEON =P

SECRET OF HAPPINESS

What is the secret of happiness? I found the answer in my home. The WALL says BE STRONG, the CEILING says AIM HIGH, the DOOR says BE OPEN, the WINDOW says LEARN TO GIVE & TAKE, the CLOCK says TIME IS GOLD, the CALENDAR says LOVE EVERYDAY as if it is the last day, the CABINET says KEEP THINGS IN ORDER, the BED says TAKE TIME TO RELAX, the LAMP says BE THE LIGHT, And GOD, who is found everywhere in my house says KEEP THE FAITH!! HAVE A BLESSED DAY!!!

Without "JESUS" days are "Mournday," "Tearsday," "Wasteday," "Thristday," "Fightday," "Shatterday, and "Sinday." So allow HIM to be with you everyday!!

Got problems? God uses problems to ......
..... direct you
..... inspect you
..... correct you
..... protect you
..... perfect you
Have a positive perspective in facing your problems. Always pray. God is there for you always!!!!

My mom gave me this message....I really miss them and truly as the message speaks off, I also found my happiness at my own HOME...thank you mom and dad....I miss you all!!!

Family

Last Saturday, my bestfriend has a Birthday bash for her son. It was Karl Alfred's first birthday...I admire her, not only from her strength but her willingness to give out happiness not only to her self but to the people around her.
The night before the birthday, I was there to help out. I love seeing her and her husband cook and be busy in the kitchen whipping up delicious dishes.... yummmmyyy.... =P
They say marriage is like cooking, you try to experiment and see which one would give out the best taste. As I see them, though quiet and sometimes shouting at each other maybe due to exhaustion, I can feel their satisfaction and excitement...I even joked his husband, I will find a guy who is like you..You're so quiet but I know you love my bestfriend so much..Where arth though ROMEO?? hehehehe =) He would joke and say, "guys like me comes one in a lifetime" hehehe =)
Well, the party was a blast, the people were happy.... Filipinos, when we do birthday parties, it like a reunion. Reunion of friends, love ones and spending of quality time with the people most important in your lives.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KARL and JOJO

JACKPOT????

Naalala ko dati pag tinatanong ako kung bakit wala pa ako boyfriend..Sasagot ko lang kasi wala pa yung ibibigay ni GOD sa akin. Lagi naman nila sagot, "Ang bait mo naman, bakit kaya wala pa sya?" Sasagot ko naman: "Siguro mala anghel sya"
Dumadating sa point na, nasasaktan na ako, pero patuloy pa rin ako umaasa na darating sya...Sabi ko sa sarili ko, kung di man ako bigyan ng Diyos ng partner, may dahilan..at kung ano man yun dapat akong maging mapagpasalamat pa rin..
Pero, ang puso habang tumitibok, nagmamahal...Maraming beses na ako nasaktan, umiyak, pero di ko pinagsisihan ang lahat. Sa bawat pagpatak ng luha, iniisip ko di yun ang pinili ng Diyos para sakin. Ako lang ang makulit, di ako nagiging pasensyosa...
Sa huling drama ng buhay ko na tinalo ko pa mga dramatic actresses sa pag iyak, sabi ko sa sarili ko magiging matatag na ako...(Lagi naman eh) Sa mga panahon na yun, nakita ko ang mga taong tunay na nagmamahal at nagmamalasakit sakin... Nakita ko na marami pala ang nakapaligid sa kin na tunay na nagmamahal sakin...
Sa ngayon, masasabi ko na masaya ako.. Hinahayaan ko lang na mangyari ang lahat..Sa mga panahon ngayon, maganda naman ang mga nangyayari...Sana tuloy tuloy na ito..sana forever...
Ganun naman talaga eh? Patuloy na umasa at patuloy na magmahal, malay natin di ba, sa pagkakataong ito nakajackpot na ako... =)

Conclusyon

Ang mansanas ni Doreen, ngayo'y nasa salad na...Kaya nawalan na ng bisa and gayuma..Pero si Allan, ayun Haliparot pa rin...ahahhaa =P

Si Haliparot na Allan at ang Mansanas ni Doreen

Nagsimula ang lahat sa server room. Nagtama ang kanilang mata, nanglilisik. Miss na kasi ni Doreen and mga alaga nyang mga kuneho..Sa unang pagkikita, ma spark na, parang flickering effect ng monitor pag nasisira.

By nature, Haliparot talaga si Allan, sa mga tingin nya na pailalim, nahikayat si Doreen na pagdalhan sya ng mga pagkain. Nung una parang pabalibag nya inihagis kay Allan ang tinapay, pero tinanggap yun ni Allan ng buong puso..

Kagabi, pag uwi ni Allan, pinakita nya kung paano sya i shower ng pagkain ni Doreen. May Mansanas, candy at kung ano ano pa....Takot hawakan o kagatan ng mga kasama ni Allan ang mansanas, baka kasi ito ay may gayuma...

Abangan sa susunod.....Sino ang magtatangkang timikim ng Mansanas ni Doreen

Paano?

Bigla na lang dumating ka. Parang napapangiti mo ako pag nakikita kita. Siguro dun nagsimula yun. Ewan ko kung ano meron ka..di naman tayo ang uusap nung una, pero natuwa ako na nakita kita..

Di plano, nagkakilala tayo, siguro, nararamdaman mo rin yung nararamdaman ko..Sa ngayon, ayoko mag isip ng kung ano ano..basta masasabi ko lang salamat at napapasaya mo ako.. Kung paano...? ngiti na lang ang mabibigay ko =)

Long Weekend

I moved to our new house last Saturday. Date: 07/07/07. Time: 11:00 am. All I can say, it was tiring, but fullfilling. From the time we arrived, we started cleaning and fixing the house. Until, Sunday we still clean and clean until our feet sore. -- The result was very satisfactory...

Sleeping was another problem, it's very hard to sleep to a new place and even I am so tired, I keep waking up every now and then..We are adjusting and coping to the new house. No Television for the meantime, we have to sacrifice a little. All you will hear in the house is the radio playing and lots of laughter...=)

Singlehood is such a happy experience. You get to know yourself better. You get to notice your capabilities and and you can challange yourself to be better..Next plan is house warming.. =)

Cleanse Me

I remembered I saw a butcher carefully cleans the meat in front of him. He skillfully takes off the fat surrounding the meat and debones the flesh. I admire his dedication in his work. His work is not an easy job; it is very messy for one and second it takes lots and lots of energy to finish one meat..But he is so patient and he seems so happy in his job.

Some of us, we do not like our job. We always complain of the difficulties we faced everyday. We complain that we cannot cope up with the workload. Our job sucks and sometimes we also say that we are just not happy..I would not exempt myself.. of course, I am a complainer also..But when I saw the butcher that day..It reminded me of how blessed I am as well. Of having to be placed in an air-conditioned room all day..Have friends to see each morning and maybe not all day, but there are times; I go home happy, satisfied and content that I have done my duties wisely.

Thank you LORD, for the work you have placed me into.. Thank you for helping me see that life should be experienced, life should be felt and life should be lived.....

CHANGE

Sometimes, you have to step out of your comfort zone to see if you can survive. To test yourself how strong you are. To challenge your own capabilities and strengths....

This week I will transfer houses. I suddenly miss my best friend; she is my shoulder in times of need. She has been more than a best friend but a sister during the challenges I face here in Singapore. She was there all along. Protecting me and keeping me safe. They say, in our Barkada, I was the most fragile one. Walang alam sa tunay na mundo..

I suddenly miss all of them, my family, my friends in the Philippines, my church..My home....I suddenly was faced by the fact that there are so many problems surrounding me. I suddenly feel afraid...

Coming out of my shell is very hard. I am a very sentimental person. I am a person who is easily contented. I try not to be hopeful of things that are impossible to reach, but I still act on things that can be done. I value NOW, not what is COMING. I respect my PAST to cherish my PRESENT.

Right now, even closing my eyes, I can remember their faces. haizzz.....I suddenly really miss them badly...