DEEP

Binocular

So this is what you mean
And this is how you feel
So this is how you see
And this is how you breathe
Sometimes
I know
Sometimes
I go down deep
Oh

So this is what you mean
And this is how you feel
So this how you see
And this is how you breathe

Sometimes
I know
Sometimes
I go down deep
Oh

Beneath the deep blue sea
Touching every breath
All a slight off hand
For everything you left

Sometimes
I know
Sometimes
I go down deep
Oh

Sometimes
I give myself for you
Sometimes
I know down deep

Not So New Things

The things I learned for any relationship to work:

1. Lots and lots of communication.
2. Acceptance
3. Compromise
4. Forgiveness
5. Understanding
6. Effort
7. You give
8. You should take
9. Trust
10 Faith

And most of all, be, his/her friend..a companion, in which, you can open up anthing..Where you are comfortable in saying, without thinking twice. Trusting that everything is still okey.. I will just be here next to you...dear friends...

Tuliro

Gusto ko sabihin nahihirapan na ako, napapagod, nagsisimula nanaman ako umiyak tuwing gabi...umiyak kasi nasasaktan ako....nasasaktan ako kasi di ko alam kung paano ko ba kukumbinsihin ang mga tao sa paligid ko?

Minsan gusto kita sisihin kasi di ka masalita, mas malimit, pinararamdam mo ang pagmamahal mo, sa pamamagitan ng mga gawa. Oo masaya ako run, dahil kung baga sa direct contact, ako lahat nakakasalo nun..Kung baga sa kasabihan na "action speaks louder than words" 3 points ka parati..."E" for effort meron ka rin naman, pero di ka nga lang talaga magsasalita ng kusa...Minsan rin iniisip ko mailap ka sa tao, kasi gusto mo lagi tayo lang dalawa magkasama.. tuloy naiisip ko baka di na tao tingin mo sa kin...hehehe (joke lang). Di lang nila nakikita alam ko na gusto mo gumawa ng effort rin para mapalapit sa kanila...Di mo kasi aakalain na mala artista itong nakuha mo...maraming connection at kakilala.. maraming nagmamahal....ang tagal mo kasi dumating eh...hehehe =P

Minsan gusto ko sisihin sarili ko, kasi naman itong puso ko tumibok nanaman ulit..itong puso ko pumayag na papasukin ka...Hinahayaan lang ba kita na ganyan ka...binubulag ko lang ba ang sarili ko at iniisip ko lang lahat ng ito? eh, bakit masaya tayong dalawa? Ang mga relasyon na nagsisimula, ayaw nga nila ng may nakikialam eh, dahil gumagawa sila ng mundo nila.. pero nga dahil artistahin itong naging GF mo, sorry no choice, maraming mag iisip na baka niloloko mo lang ako.. kasi mahal nila ako....ayaw nila ako masaktan...pero parang pagkain lang yan, paano ko malalaman kung tama na sa timpla o hindi pa kung di ko lakas loob na titikman, papakialaman para tumama ang lasa....??? haaayyy buhay....parang showbizness....

Gusto ko lang sabihin na kumapit ka lang ha, kasi kakapit rin ako...mag pray tayong dalawa ha..saka patuloy natin pasayahin ang bawat isa....kayanin natin ito...mabagal na mahirap na masaya....na parang dudugo na ilong ko sa hirap...nakakabaliw na rin minsan, aning na nga ata ako, kasi di ko ma alam kung ano gagawin ko...ito sinasabi ng puso ko, ito naman sinasabi ng utak ko...siguro nga mahirap mag mahal ng tapat kasi minsan di kapani paniwala.....Pero in due time...kaya natin yan....kahit masakit na ulo mo at tuliro na ako....KAPIT LANG TAYO....at ang mga nagmamahal sa atin, sila yung tinatawag na spices, kaya lalong sumasarap ang BUHAY.. salamat sa inyo....

How Do I Love Thee

Every girl's wish is to see his night in shining armor. I stopped thinking about it, when I had my last heartache. I thought to myself maybe, I should stop wondering where is he and start just being happy about myself. If he is around, he would definitely find me...

Then you found me. In your eyes I was not invisible..You first saw me. for me, you are the answer from GOD. How would I know? I saw the signs..At first I did not notice and never even imagined. Because at that time I was busy enjoying myself. But I remembered my last prayer and I will always keep it here in my heart..It is a prayer between me and GOD..

I am happy, because we are starting slow but strong...I still have doubts and I still have questions..But I still pray..I still trust in GOD ..I trust in your words, I trust in your actions, I trust in your love...How do I love thee??? I love thee through faith and trust.. I love thee, even it is hard...hard because of the pressure we are facing...I do not know if you feel it, or you just choose to just trust in me as well. But I feel it..

We both have dreams we want to reach, both of us have different past, both still does not know much about each other and both sometimes is indifferent. We manage to make it through, one at a time..we are struggling to the process called "acceptance". But I know we are happy..

And this is my prayer, whatever, will come, let us face it together, and if this has to end let it end with still good memories..But if by God's will, we're still together...I will love thee till forever.... =)


Earlene
1:02 am
26/08/2007

I Could Not Ask For More

Artist: Edwin McCain

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Chorus
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Chorus

I could not ask for more than the love you give me 'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more

What I Need Right Now

What I need right now is some good company and lots of trust....Why did I say this???

For weeks, there has been great and leaping changes in my life. I tried to hide the fact that I am again dating and the that there might be something good in store for me in the near future...I do not know why but mainly because I only want my life to be private....But sometimes, you cannot hide the fact that even you want things to be just as simple as they can be, life by truth is a roller coaster ride and you are not alone doing the loops...hehehehe =)

I am ready for anything physically, mentally but if you asked me socially I am not ready...It's not that I am afraid, It's not that I do not have faith or it's not because I lack confidence...It's just that I do not want my life to be put in a fish bowl and everybody making it smaller and smaller everyday for me..

I went here to be free, to free myself from bondage from everybody. I want to see what I can do on my own without rules, boundaries or expectations...But life it is is really very complicated.....You cannot say life is simple, it's a BIG JOKE.... life can be equated to CHANGE....because if one refuse to change, he would die, die inside....because life breaths to fight to adjust...

I value friends and love ones, that is how I cope up with life changes...I learn to love what God provided and I am very bless to all He has given me....and if by faith, he gave me both.. love and career I will embrace it with open arms....My friend told me once Earlene, you get only one, be successful in your love life or be successful in your career....I know by GOD's grace I can have it all....heheehhhehehe =) In Jesus name.....

But if ever I cannot have both, I need these two things TRUST AND LOTS OF GOOD COMPANY....

Non -baked cheese cake

My collegue Anna. earlier let us taste her none baked cheese cake and it is good...hehehehehe =) She also shared to me how to make them....

Prepare the base first:
1 pack of Khong Guan biscuit
1 block of buttercrush the biscuit and mixed with butterspread on 15cm aluminum container
Philadephia cheese
2 teaspoons of gelatine baking powderslices of pineapple / mango/strawberrymixed with milk , water, syrup(total amount of liquid is only ½ cup) and boiled .Pour into the container, Leave it to cool and put in fridge for 2-3 hrs or overnight

Actions Speak Louder than Words

I never thought I would never say this words again. But here I am, confused and lost... Does action speak louder than words???

Some people love it when, they see something happening and see results with their own two eyes. They want something that is visible and something they can touch. Some would want it in terms of a promise or a "I take your word on that" thing...Is it enough that you feel it? or Is is enough you just hear it? Or you need both..???

My friend told me, that she knows a friend, whose boyfriend would say "i love you" but always hurt her phsically but she says the boyfriend says sorry afterwards... (what the @$@##$#!!!). Now I my friend is in a situation... that she sees action..and if she based the actions as a tool to measure the relationship...definitely, She would say, the other person likes her....Then I got confused....haiizzz.....

In a relationship, what does really matter? Is it the actions or the words?

Bestfriends

I just finished watching Ocean's 13 and suddenly, I missed my bestfriend. The story was quite nice and better than Ocean's 12, but what I noticed in the movie was the complete TRUST and LOVE for one another of this 11 guys.

The team is lead by Danny Ocean and his right hand Rusty. Watching them suddenly gets me to the mood of missing my bestfriend. Alelie as the one who pushed me to try Singapore. She was the one who helped me slowly cope up with the culture shock, the sadness and the changes in my life. Though slow but quite good, because, where I am now, I can say, I have fully bloomed in this country of opportunity.

I suddenly missed her, I missed our night talks, our giggles and long talks at night. I missed her son and daughter who I truly treasure as my own as well. I missed Papa Boms, who would always make me feel I am part of the family..I truly missed them...

Everytime I would call, she would patiently listen. Whenever I need help, she would not hesitate. Each step I take she would be there and I truly am thankful for that...I have not been seeing her for quite sometime and I really would want to have those moments again...She has shown me unconditional love...and in return I am doing that to other people I connect to, to let them feel that once in my life, I as also helpless, a wanderer, but because MY BESTFRIEND was there, I found home where I am now...

I miss you, Alempot mmwaahh =)

Someone's Watching Over Me

Hilary Duff

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

Kontento

Dati akala ko madali ako makontento.. Pero nito lang, naisip ko wala ako kakontentuhan..,, dati nung nakita kita..natawa lang ako naisip ko, di magkakagusto ang tipo ng lalaki na ito sakin. Pero napansin mo ako...Sabi ko sana, kahit kaibigan lang...okey na ako..Pero ito ako ngayon, higit pa sa kaibigan turing mo sakin, pero nag hahanap pa rin ako...Wala nga ako kakontentuhan...???

Pinanalangin na kita, dapat nagtitiwala ako sa Maykapal..Alam ko ikaw ang binigay nya sakin...Bakit pa ako magdadalawang isip? Bakit pa ako, mawawalan ng tiwala? Dapat akong manatili kung san ako nakatayo at patuloy na ipanalangin na sana makontento ako at hayaang si GOD and mag guide ng buhay natin...=)

So Near Yet So Far

Sabi ng kaibigan ko kailangan na raw nya ng salbabida kasi nalulunod na sya. Ako rin raw tingin nya kailangan ko na. Sabi ko nagtatmpisaw pa lang ako sa dalampasigan, sya nasa laot na. Di ko pa kailangan ng salbabida.... =)

Parang nung kailan lang yun, naaalala ko, nasa MRT station kaming tatlo. Sabi ko sa kanila binigyan nya number nya sakin at in return gusto ko naman sya i text. Sabi nila oo sige text mo, matapos ang pag cocompose ng mga salitang dapat raw eh nasa pamatayan na "safe sms message" (ibig sabihin, di needy ang dating, di desperate, di rin friendly, at higit sa lahat dating ng interested) langya ang hirap noh...nagpadala kami ng sms message. Nakakatuwa na nakakathrill kasi sumagot lang sya nung malapit na bumaba yung dalawang kaibigan ko at left alone ako na nag iisip ng mga words to choose para ma contruct ang aking mga sagot...

Dun nagsimula yun eh, dun lang...pero tingin ko bago ko pa man napansin ka, napansin mo na ako...bakit mo ba bibigay ang number mo sakin kung di mo gusto na i text kita... =P (sabi ng Konsensya ko, "Earlene are you convincing him or are you convincing yourself?) "Consicience, Shut up" ahhaahahha =P

Masasabi ko lang, tama lang na naglakas loob ako ng mga oras na yun, di na importante kung ako nauna o ikaw ang nakapansin, ang importante masaya tayo dalawa ngayon. Basta alam ko masaya ako sa piling mo, ikaw masaya ka ba? Kita ko naman sa mga ngiti mo....Mamaya na lang siguro tanungin kita...see you later... =P

Pasta Makes Me Dizzy

I really do not know what's with Pasta, it makes me sick. Everytime, I get to have pasta as my meal, Before I can finish my plate, I can see stars flying...At first I thought it was just tomato sauce and cheese, But I also get dizzy when eating carbonara... =(

I really do not know the reason why, maybe it's the noodles? or maybe the cheese? But until now, It's uncertain why Pasta makes me dizzy =(

More Than Meets the Eye

I was not able to catch the Transformers at the big screen. But I really want to watch the movie based from the reactions and comments of my office collegues. Last night we were able to see the magnificent movie. All I can say was that I was awed...I fell instantly inlove with the robots..ahahaha =P

My collegue (Ida) was right, you will never look at automobiles the same way again...The effects was so cool, and the fight scenes were amazing..The director was able to put up a funny fiasco as well..hehehe =)

When I was little my brothers and I would be stuck on the television watching transformers and I really love it..Instead of combing my barbie's hair and play with them. I am in front of the TV, fighting with my brothers to get the best seat in the living room..

Truly the movie was more than meets the eye and I hope there would be a part 2...

The Best Things in Life are Free

Good Song and Good meanig as well. Truly the best things in life are free...

1. The warmth of someone who cares

2. The laughter of love ones

3. Reunions

4. Letting go and Moving on

5. Respect

6. Love reciprocated

7. A tight hug. when you're down.

8. A smile from a stranger

9. Friends (Old and New)

10.Family

11.Eternal Life

12.Appreciation

13.Courage drawn from failure

14.Quality Time

15.Elders advise

16. Understanding

I can go on forever and ever....=)